I wonder how many times that has been said to me in the past couple of weeks (well, months, really) – I’ve lost count!
I’m generally not nervous about the wedding, but whenever someone says “not long to go now!” I feel a flutter in my stomach, my eyes widen a little, and a nervous smile appears, along with a lame response of “mmm yes!”.
I’m not nervous about the getting married part. I am SO sure about marrying the Groom and spending my life with him.
Things that make me feel a little bit nervous are…
Being the centre of attention, especially reading our vows aloud. I hate speaking in front of a group, my voice quavers, and 101 is a huge group, even if they are our family and friends. I also find it a bit stressful being the host and ‘guest of honour’ (from past party experiences); it’s hard trying to spend enough time with each of your guests.
I want everyone to have an awesome time. I care what people think. I wish I didn’t so much though. I wonder if there will be negative thoughts, like ‘wow, her arms look big, check out those guns’, ‘I’m bored’, or ‘lentils?!’. I know these are silly things to think, I need to stop!
For the few nervous thoughts though, there are so many things I am looking forward to… I can’t wait to be married to the Groom, to be husband and wife. It still blows my mind when I think about it. I can’t wait to share the day with our family and friends, to celebrate love, and all that nice stuff. And I can’t wait for our honeymoon, to relax and enjoy ourselves, to bask in our newlywed-ness (“Just Married” bikini and towel, anyone? Haha 😉 )!
The greatest thing you’ll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return – Eden Ahbez, Nature Boy